My mind is eating me alive, I don’t remember the last time I was completely happy for a whole day, I feel captive in my own mind, I can’t escape my thoughts  and these make me feel weak, not capable to be okay.

I feel like I’m wasting my life, that in any moment i will stop existing and the only people who will miss me is my family. That I will not leave a mark in the world and history will never know my name.

I wake up everyday knowing it will be another day of fighting my thoughts, I’m so desperate to feel better, I want to go back to the days when I was happy, when I wasn’t worrying about my existence every second, I was just living. 

I want to live without fearing, but my mind is stronger than me.