How im learning to love my mind,

I realized once that my thoughts were going to be there if I wanted or not, it wasn’t something I could choose to feel or think, it was just there and I had to deal with it.

The days have been better since I started to blog, speak out about it and most important since I started therapy. Being able to talk with an expert and know that what I’m going through is not something that only happens to me makes me feel like I am not alone.

However, I feel like after I am being recharged with good energy, positive thoughts and calm, the negative thoughts get stronger and deep down in my mind trying to come out to break me again.

I guess it is all about how strong I am, stronger than my negative thoughts, stronger than my fears. I don’t believe anytime soon I will just randomly stop being anxious or having panic attacks, but I do hope that in the future, one day I will be able to spend a day without fearing my mind will get the best of me.

After so many years dealing witht this, sometimes I feel like im doing so much, but then I realize, I can do even more. Baby steps will get me there, Baby steps will get me to the top and finally say IM FINE.