For the bad nights, for the heavy cloud over my head, for the fog in my mind, sometimes you need a little bit of help.

For a lot people the night is the best part of their day, they look forward for being in bed and get some good sleep, for me is always the thought of “ I hope tonight I can make it”.

So I get into my room, clean my face, brush my teeth, turn on the tv, practice breathing exercises and pet my dogs, The tv is never off, I need the light and sound but even after all of this sometimes is not enough,

So I open my drawer, I feel defeated as I know it’s not going to be a night when I can do it all by myself, so I grab the sleeping pill, take it and wait for it to work, I’ll be able to fall asleep without dealing with panic attacks.

I needed help tonight, I hope tomorrow I’ll be able to do it alone, I hope one day I’ll be able to do it alone.