I’m tired, I didn’t sleep at all, I was up all night, I watched tv, pet my dogs and held my boyfriends hand, but they were all sleep,they seemed so peaceful while my mind was in the middle of a battle.

I woke up and wanted to cry, I don’t want to work, I want to crawl inside my blankets, cuddle up with my dogs and just relax, I want to sleep as my eyes are closing while I work, I’m not even hungry, it has been a while since I ate properly, I’m eating probably just once or twice a day.

Am I losing control of everything? Am I just disappearing little by little ? What is inside my brain that is causing me this ? Will I ever be me again?