I see her losing her energy day by day, she doesn’t bark anymore, she can’t jump to her couch or bed, she only eats when I forcefully put food in her mouth just because I can’t see her losing more weight.

Sometimes she plays with toys but gets tired pretty quickly, she doesn’t run behind me while I am riding the bike or doesn’t jump on me when I arrive home, she doesn’t give me “ kisses attacks “ anymore , but sometimes gives me a couple of delicate ones.

She doesn’t “talk to me anymore”, we used to have really good conversation

She doesn’t eat her treats or destroy her toys

She doesn’t cry for attention or stares at me until I notice her

She doesn’t lay on her back and cries until we rub her belly, she doesn’t play with the soccer ball every time she sees it.

She still loves me and i know that for sure

She still wants to sleep against my body or lays down making sure she can look at me.

She still goes wherever I go and follows me around when she can.

But she is tired, I know she is

I tell her every day to let me know when she is ready to go, the problem is, I am not ready to let her go.

I feel selfish for wanting more days, months and years by her side

I feel selfish because I can’t let her go , She taught me so much about life but I still haven’t learn how to live without her.

I know I have to make the decision to let her go, she is letting me know is time to do it, she is letting me know she is tired, she wants to rest…