The water is warm, the candle is lit, moonlight sonata 1st movement starts.

I can feel my heartbeat through all my body

I can feel a burst of sadness rushing out of chest

And I start to cry, is like the tears where infinite, they fall through my face like a waterfall, one after the other, mixing with the water from the bathtub

I have difficulty breathing, feels like there is so much in my chest piling up ,trying to come out

I don’t stop for some long minutes, I cry like I haven’t cry in over a week, it hurts , it never stopped hurting but I just put it in the back of my head

And little by little, I feel my chest lighter, I can breath again, my heartbeat slows down.

I let it out.

And maybe in a few days, weeks or months it will pile up again, luckily the moonlight sonata will still be there.