It has been 2 years since my life completely changed, but let’s rewind, what was life before Jan 2020?

Well, if we speak in general, MANY things were different, lets’s start by saying: Nobody knew what COVID was. we each had our personal issues but we still didn’t know that a GLOBAL issue was about to happen.

Before January 2020 I was falling to sleep around 2 – 3am and waking up at 7 am.

Before January 2020 I couldn’t take long showers or baths without having a panic attack

Before January 2020 I couldn’t spend a whole night without waking up at least 3-5 times screaming or crying due to Night Terrors

Before January 2020 I would experience a minimum of 3 panic attacks a day, some of them would be so incredibly hard that I would scratch my arms or pull my own hair in despair.

Before January 2020, my mind was broken, I felt weak, I was in crumbles; I have been dealing with my mental health challenges for SO long, ALL by myself, that my body and mind were falling to pieces.

But life got better, when I knew ENOUGH WAS ENOUGH! and I decided to seek help, that’s how my therapy journey started.

If I go in dept about how therapy changed my life this blog would be an entire book! but I can tell you that:

I can sleep, I can take long showers, I can take baths, I can spend days, weeks or even months without panic attacks!

I learned to recognize the signals of my body, the beeping alarms that my mind would send me when help was needed. I started practicing new ways of living, new ways of seeing the world in general.

I am: AT PEACE.

Yes, I still have night terrors, and panic attacks and I am still really anxious, and I still battle with depressive episodes, the difference is that THIS doesn’t define my life.

I DO, I make my own decisions, not my unbalanced hormones, not my unpredictable brain.

Therapy changed my life, because it gave me hope that I could live.