It has been already over a month since I lost her
I still have to wake up every morning, feed my other pets , have to go to work, have to eat, have to walk my pets and sit with them outside
We went to the dog park, I saw other dogs running, my Hunna loved the dog park
We have received 2 bark boxes since she died, she always knew just by smelling the box that she would get new toys and treats
I haven’t moved her bed, I still have her bowl with water , her sweaters are still in the same spot where she used to lay down
I still have her medicine and supplements
I still sleep with her blanket
All of this keeps happening, even when she is gone
And I keep thinking about her, about that last day, last hug , last time I saw myself in her eyes
But time keeps moving, life goes on and I seem to be stuck in that ONE day, the last one, when I held her until I stopped feeling her breathing , until the doctor told me “ she’s at peace”.
It has been almost 2 months since people told me “time will heal everything”, since I thought only the first days will hurt, but every day hurts
And no matter how much I try to understand or how hard I try to wake up from this nightmare… life goes on …